I'm a worried wife

And it was said: O earth, swallow down your water, and O cloud, clear away; and the water was made to abate and the affair was decided, and the ark rested on the Judi, and it was said: Away with the unjust people.

"Happy birthday, suami!"

"Thank you so much."

"This must be your most memorable birthday ever!"

"Yeah I got to celebrate with 300 other people and I'm practically staying in a mosque! What not to love.."

He sounds fine even though he is practically staying in a mosque with 300 other flood victims in Pahang. He asked me to stop worrying because everything is under controlled. He get to know different kinds of people from different background, he told me. Meanwhile, in Dublin, I cannot stop crying and freaking out in my room alone with freezing weather outside. I'm a very anxious person especially when it comes to safety of the people I love. I guess I'm becoming more like my mom (well, good luck to my kids). The day, he decided to go back to Kerteh ( oh please laaa to all oil and gas companies, can you please stop sending your engineers to the site until the flood subsides?) , I told him to stay in KL and wait until the flood subsides but he said, " You are just a worried wife. I'll be fine." I bet you are right,my dear husband! 

I'm more worried when my biggest nightmare came true. He is stranded in Jengka, Pahang now due to the massive flood. Guys out there, please listen to your wife. We, women have sixth sense! Put the joke aside, when you love someone so much, it hurts freaking much when you can't do anything to help them other than keep praying for their safety.  

Dear suami, like you said, 'ini mungkin kesusahan sebelum kemudahan. Allah wants me to be in His house. I get to pray jamaah and help people here. There must be a hikmah for all of this.' 

Happy Birthday, my wonderwall.

p.s : please include all the flood victims in your prayer. Pray for pantai timur. 

light writing 4 - of food hunting and sunset

I don't know about other people but when it comes to food I choose quality over quantity. I'm a type of person who prefer to cook my own food (I blame my mom and currently, my husband for making me become such a dapur type of person ), so if I want to eat outside I prefer to eat in nice restaurants that serve nice food. Most of the times, my choice of restaurants will be rejected by my friends because 'it's too classy' or 'it's too expensive'. So yeah, most of the time I'll end up eating home-cook nasi goreng kampung with cili potong at home. When a friend of mine who also goes for quality food rather than quantity ask me to go for food hunting in Dublin, I can't say no!  She made a last minute plan to come to Dublin instead of London just to eat!

Our first restaurant was Deep Restaurant in Howth. Howth is located around 20 minutes away from Dublin city itself by train. It is a actually a fishing and port village where you can eat selections of fresh seafood and go for a beautiful walk up to the top of the hill for a scenic panorama of beach and mountains.

Well, not the best seafood plater I have had but, not too bad. 

What is it about sunset that makes people feel so romantic and sometimes...melancholic?

He was like, "I just wanna chill here,man..."

Photography job.

On the way to my first photography job. 

(iPhone photo)

Heh. Alhamdulillah I was paid to take pictures today. So, this is how it feels like to be paid to do something you love, huh? It was not something big but I really enjoyed doing it (and what not to love when you get money from your hobby). I was not expecting any payment because I usually take pictures for fun. I'm glad my first client ( oh my god i got a client now!) was so happy with all the pictures. At first, I was quite reluctant to say yes since I'm not a photographer. A Malaysian family here approached me on Facebook and asked me to take their family's picture but I told them they deserve a proper photographer. Plus,being me I always have a low self-esteem and easily doubt my own skill which is not something that I'm proud of. My husband then told me to just try if I get another offer. So, a few days ago, I agreed to take photos for someone's business and my neighbour's family dinner which I can't wait to share the pictures here but I need to ask their permission first ( Irish people are very particular about legal issue or whatnots regarding posting pictures on social media and I don't want to take any risks even though I believe they don't really mind). 

I'm very shy to tell this, even writing this my face turns red but guys, I create a new email account for this. heh. ( nabilahaisyahcj@gmail.com )

Ok nak pergi menyorok bawah bantal sebab malu.

Let's play, first.

The weather is so nice today. My friend from Cork is on her way to Dublin now and she is planning to go for food hunting here. When it comes to food and nice reataurants, I just can't say no to her plan. I'm purposely not planning to go anywhere during my winter break this year since final exam ( like final, final!!) is just in 2 months. Oh well, I need to play with these 'guys' (picture) before I hit the book, studying my life away. 

light writing 3 - Iceland

 Last week was the busiest week I had so far in my final year. Well, I dont want to complain much about it since I'm right now in the first step of my shrink's 'project' to 'convert' me to be an optimist. He said, the first step is to stop complaining. I can't believe I'm going to agree with him with this but I do feel different.  I currently attach to a surgical team in one of the hospitals here that require me to travel very early in the morning and get home very late in the evening. Ok, not complaining about it now but to be frank, it was a bit stressful since I have to take 2 buses and 15 minutes walk in cold and dark and the surgeons always late for tutorials or wardround. But then, I promise to myself to stop being a whiny baby. Wake up everyday and decide not to complain about a single thing and I think I'm doing great with my shrink's so-call 'optimist conversion project'. To reward myself, I went to Iceland with my in-laws. Yes, it was just an excuse to go to Iceland. Anyway, even in Iceland, I tried not to complain about anything. My mantra was 'it's okay Nabilah Aisyah, don't be a whiny baby!' And wolllla, I had an awesome weekend and feel so much better. Now, I'm moving to the second phase, facilitate joy. Well, can't really tell much about that since I'm still trying to understand it. I'll write about it once I get to the third phase. Let's wait and see. 

These are some photos that I captured in Iceland . 

Gullfoss

"To stand at Gullfoss and wallow in the beauty and the wonder of nature is an uplifting experience. 

One feels more energetic when leaving Gullfoss than when arriving. "

Thank you!

Every single year I get a surprised birthday cake. I'm very grateful for having these nice and beautiful people in my life. This year alone, I got 3 birthday dinners! 

First birthday dinner with 'the doctors'.

Second birthday dinner with 'the accountants'.

Third birthday dinner with the in-laws.

I always complain to my husband how bulky my dslr is but at the same time I dont want to use a compact camera because the quality of the picture is not as good as dslr or maybe i just dont know how to use it. So,he is the one who always brings my bulky dslr whenever we go travel and I guess he started to feel annoyed about it. Lol. I told him the only solution to this is a compact dslr or whatever you call it.  After 3 birthday dinners, I finally got my birthday present from en. Wonderwall. 

My new toy. I love it so much. Thank you, suami!

But still, it is not about what type of camera you use, it is how you capture the moment. 

Have a good Sunday, everyone. 

immaturity

It's not good and very uncivilised to write bad things about other people on social network especially when you have the same circle of friends with that person. The person might not read it, but people who know her or him can read about it.



oh well, takpe lah Nabilah Aisyah, Allah itu sentiasa bersama orang yang sabar. Maka bersabarlah dan tidur. Good night.



p/s : I had an awesome weekend!

happy place

"If you are sad, depressed or anxious, close your eyes, and remember your 'happy place'."

I put all my 'happy places' on my wall next to my bed. 

It is not that I love my own photos, but these photos remind me that I could be happy.

Oh yes, some people need to be reminded that they deserve to be happy, in case you are wondering.

What is your happy place?

light writing 2

another beautiful song from liyana fizi. 

The reason why I ended up having more of my husband's photos in my camera because I don't trust him taking pictures. We always have little argument when I tell him that he doesn't know to capture moments with camera. Oh man, i miss Bali.