I've never been this confused about 'what day is today' until today..

Wednesday is the busiest day for Orthopaedics and Trauma Surgery team that I currently attached to. They have back to back surgeries from 8 until 4 or 5 p.m. So, I kinda want Wednesday to pass quickly. I love surgeries but bones are not my forte. Today, my friend gave me a false hope by saying today is Wednesday. Plus, I did feel like today is Wednesday but what happened to my Tuesday? I've never been so confused and I actually googled 'what day is today?'  Feel so bimbo for a minute. -.-' 

and...it happened on twitter. We actually revealed our stupidity to public like that.hahah.

Tuesday is the day when I have to be in the fracture clinic and look at X-ray films of fractured bones Whenever the surgeon asks,

"What can you see there?" 

"Bone."

"I mean here!" ( while pointing to a tiny, almost invisible line in humerus bone)

"Err..still bone? Oh, there's a fracture." (just because I was in the fracture clinic..)

I'm just not into bones, i guess.

-.-'

Selamat hari pekerja!

and  don't break your bones!

Oh summer, please hurry up!

I love summer more than I love sushi. Yeah, that much.

Can't wait to go back to Malaysia to be with Shanaz and Syamim again this summer.

Damn ,I miss them. I miss them more than I miss laksa penang. Yeah, that much.

Don't eat too much cendol and laksa without me,girls!

I'm serious.

Paris syndrome

When I was having my one month holiday last month, my friend who is in a fashion school in Paris offered me to stay in her apartment while she's in Malaysia. I said no before she finished her sentence. Alone in Paris? Don't get me wrong, I love travelling alone but in Paris? Don't think so (hence, i went to Amsterdam alone). She was quite upset but she can't deny that people there can be pretty harsh as much as people say Paris is the city of love. Irony.
I had  a pretty bad experience while I was in Paris for my summer holiday before. You know the movie Monte Carlo? My friends and I had almost the same experience but not the part when people think Salena Gomez is a British heiress and fly to Monte Carlo. No one paid for our flight to Monte Carlo, unfortunately. *sigh*.  Anyway, today I looked at my Paris pictures and I finally can laugh for whatever we had in Paris. So, Paris, I think I'm ready for you again.

The best photobombing ever!! 

The casts for Paris drama.

P.s : To reply to a comment from anonymous on my previous post, of course I don't mind to share. I got them from different shops. You can try Zara. Their tops are very comfy and loose and pretty. Some of them I bought online when I was in Malaysia (fashionvalet.com). Happy shopping!

skinny love

I was having my coffee break with my team yesterday. They were talking..well of course medical stuff that made me doze off even with coffee in my hands. The consultant who suddenly noticed me doodling on a paper, asked me about my school.

"So, you came from girl's school?"

"yes, how do you know!?

"I just know. My daughter went to a girl's school in UK and you guys have similarities."

Ah, sudah.

   

" You always want to look pretty and neat all the times. Matching your shoes with your blouse and scarf,  don't want to eat heavy food because you are afraid of getting fat. Haha, you remind me of my daughter."

I was speechless. Yes, I do wear different pumps depends on my tops color but I never expect a consultant who I see him less than 2 hours everyday would notice that and say it on my face. I just want to look presentable in front of patients. Heh. Looking neat? Maybe because I was not on call last night,sir. Lol.  And yes, I never ordered sandwich during the coffee break with him eventhough he offered to pay for it but that's because all the sandwiches and panini are stuffed with chicken and they are not halal. It's not that I'm afraid of getting fat (huh, trust me on this one!). Well, he did say sorry and laugh when I explained this to him.

 Anyway, talking about girls and food, I eat a lot. No kidding. I have to eat rice for my breakfast. Cereals doesn't work for me. All the girls in my family are food lovers but we don't really gain weight , in facts,we can easily lose weight. My mom is 45 kg since she was 19 and until now she's still 45kg  with 6 children. My sister is always 42kg . She just had her second child last 3 months and on her 36th day of her pantang she can already wear her skinny jeans. And me? Well, I stuck at 38-40 kg. Some people think this is a gift. You can eat whatever you want but you can still wear skinny jeans (but look like a straight cut jeans.grrr!). But hey, our species also got problem maaa. You think it is fun to look like a papan in your wedding dress even after you eat 100 burger bakar and 3 ekor kambing? You think it is fun to wear jeans with belt? Plus, people who hardly gain weight are people who prone to sudden death ( that's why my mom is a control-freak when it comes to food) . Why do people especially girls want to be skinny by starving themselves? Life should not be that hard. Don't go on diet because you want to be skinny. I think betulkan niat dulu. You want to eat less food because you want to be healthy. I think I need to go on diet and exercise too because I keep eating rice with curry lately. Not good for my cholesterol level. Anyhow,I think we just need to be thankful for what Allah gives us.

Stay healthy and have a good weekend!

The wallflower.

Lately, I've been so busy following respiratory team like a puppy ( and more awkward when one of the interns is wearing the same tops as me) in the hospital . If people say interns are the lowest feeder in hospital's food chain, I would say medical students are never exist in the food chain! We are the wallflowers. No one cares. You go find patients on your own (and pray so hard they won't reject you), take their history and if you are lucky, the registrar or SHO will listen to your history presentation. If not you just keep bleeping them until they answer the bleep and say "Run to Cherry Ward now and meet me there." Dan bermula lah episod seram sejuk bersama consultant or registrar or SHO.

Note : only doctors can put their stethoscope on their shoulders.

"Are you sure about your differential diagnosis? How do you want to rule out all of these?"

*muka registrar*

I will be like,

"emm..errr...I..err.. I think.."

"I'm not sure.uhuks. Can we just look at the patient's chart now?"

Oh well, another 2 months of this and I'll be in Malaysia for the summer break. Woooohooooo!

Have a good day, people!

kotak hati

For those who are fighting for their long distance relationship, 

( I mean over 1000 miles long distance relationship not 20 minutes bus ride)

terang-terang bersama rasa sayang ku biarkan terbang...

Listen.

Not everyone can be so lucky as you. 

Don't brag.

Just say Alhamdulillah. 

Be humble, it doesn't hurt you pun laa.

Puii.

Of bento boxes and milk shakes...

You know, sometimes I can't help myself from thinking, am I doing the right thing by choosing this path? I mean after almost 3 years, I still don't know what I actually want to do in this field. It is not that I hate what I am doing now, it is just that I can't help from thinking what I actually want to do. I had my sushi time with  my friends a few days ago after announcing to the world of how I desperately need to eat sushi on Facebook because sometimes, we have to use social network to get what we want. heh.
After eating sushi we talked about what we actually want to do at a errr..milkshake bar (?)( Irish kids go there to hang out and talk about silly things while having milkshake but we decided to talk about... life?). Anyway, we were talking about where to work after we graduate whether in Malaysia or overseas, how much we have to pay to our sponsor, jobs in Malaysia and yada..yada..yada..and I asked them,

"Guys, if it wasn't medicine, what do you think you would do?"

"It wasn't my first choice pun. I mean it's not that I totally hate it but I always want to be an architect." 

(She can draw so well! Mashaallah. She is so talented)

"I want to work in TV lines and produce good animation or comics."

I told my housemate who is already a doctor about this and she said at this stage it is kind of normal to wonder what we actually want to do. She used to have this kind of thought before and almost gave up but she remembered how much she has to pay to her sponsor if she quite. -.-' She's a good doctor, anyway.

So, I'm not alone. Everyone has a second thought about their decision. Like I said, it has been 3 years and I don't know what I really want to achieve. All I know I want to help people and Allah loves that. It's cliche. I know that but, for now that's all I have. Every time I have to strain my eyes to study about those bacteria with fancy-tongue twisted names and feel like giving up, I will try to remember those poor kids who could be infected with these bacteria. So, if people want to say my reason is boring, cliche, lame or too 'mainstream' , all I can say, I'm sorry. I don't have any other fancy reasons for now.  At least, this is the reason that keep me going for 3 years, Alhamdulillah. I know it's getting harder and busier. I just hope I won't give up one day and forget those poor kids.

In case you are wondering about the bento box.

May Allah ease our journey. 

 And oh, if people ask me what I want to do other than medicine, I would say journalism. haha berangan je.