art

Life is an art.


Gallery Hostel,Porto,Portugal.




P.s: the best hostel in my europe trip so far.alhamdulillah.

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camelia

People change. Or maybe they just grow up. Or maybe we change as we grow up. Oh well,i don't know, but... people change.



Palacia de Pena,Lisbon,Portugal.






P.s: macam rindu.

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glory

Hidup ini bukan sentiasa dalam kemenangan.life has its own deficiencies.gotta face it!


Lisbon,Portugal.

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it is happening

Life does not happen to you.you have to happen to life.



Lagos, Portugal.

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sunset

Hidup seperti perahu.tanpa tali kita akan hanyut.





Sunset.portugal.

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friends

it's always friday

eat

ah.makhluk comel nih.syamim dapat dulu.

"how i met your mother"

...

setaknak-taknak aku dengan sesuatu itu, sekarang, sekeras-kerasnya aku mahukannya

untuk sebab apa? atas alasan apa? 

aku petah menjawab untuk kali pertama sampai ke dua belas kalinya soalan-soalan berupa ini ditanya. tapi sekarang, aku hanya mampu menjawab, "i just don't know." 

bukan aku penat. tapi aku tak nak ia disebabkan oleh 'kerana'. 

sebetulnya begitu lah.

sekarang baru aku faham, bukan semua benda disebabkan 'kerana'.

pernah dengar orang cakap, "everything happens for a reason"?

selaku orang yang mengambil logik secara serius, aku sukakan kata-kata ini. tapi nayy,takleh pakai dalam semua benda rupanya.

tapi,mungkin juga sebab aku penat. 

ye lah.bila penat aku cranky.

ah.

p.s: bila aku update blog dua kali dalam satu hari, ia buat aku fikir betapa kelas dan exam mengisi hidup aku selama ini. ye,selama ini.

epic.

love story yang epic biasanya berakhir dengan kesudahan yang tidak bahagia.

romeo and juliet, contohnya.

kalau bahagia memanjang bosan la.

nak jadi epic ke bosan?

aku pilih nak jadi bosan. 

ah.

p.s: bila kawan baik kau dah tak mengaku kau kawan baik dia, beg no. sebagai seorang yang mempunyai sedikit kawan dan mementingkan friendship, ini sangat menyedihkan.

remember?

don't act like you'r perfect either.
because no one is perfect.
hey, you were the one who told me that!
remember?

i'm in my shittiest mood ever.
don't try to poke me
it makes my eyes turn red,
my hands in tremor,
want to scream.

no one is perfect.
remember?

don't try to poke me.
i'm in my shittiest  mood ever.

you have your own shittiest mood.
don;t try to deny it.
because you are just not perfect.
remember?

no one is perfect.
so, don't act like you'r perfect either.
just don't.
you make me feel this nauseous feeling.
i'm in my shittiest mood.

i'm sorry but just don't.


maybe we are just too different.
but we are not perfect.
remember?



-nabilah aisyah and her shittiest mood-

it's freaking stressful.

people say money is not everything. i say, yes, you can say that because you buy everything by using your credit card!

people say, don't be stupid worrying about money. i said, yes, you can say that because your dad or your mom  gives you 2000 euro or pound or ringgit every freaking month!

people say, money can't buy everything like you mom's love, your dad's words, you family's warmth, your boyfriend's loyalty. i said, are you sure? because as far as i know, i have to pay my flight ticket to go back to malaysia to my mom's love, my dad's words, my family's warmth and i need money. yeah that freaking money. the money i've been saving every freaking month (and now they are gone just because of the stupid technical error).

so, dear my ticket's agent, 

i just want my money back. my money was deducted twice from my account like i paid double (more than double actually) for the ticket just because of the stupid technical error of your website. you said you will pay me back as soon as possible and it had been almost a week and i'm starving and i need money to buy food. and why don't you answer my call now? i've been calling you since yesterday. i know people say money is not everything, but can you please give my money back? and PICK UP YOUR PHONE!!!

argh! how i wish you can read this.

p.s: rule number one. jangan bercakap mengenai duit dengan orang yang tak pernah rasa betapa susahnya untuk dapat duit. seriously. just don't. or else you want to end the conversation with unpleasant feeling in your chest.like angina. true story

like a rock!

Sometimes we need to pretend that we are strong. Like a rock. Or steel. Or whatever.

Get used to it and you will forget that you used to be so fragile. And now, you think you are strong. Like a rock.or steel. Or whatever.





'apabila Allah menolongmu,maka tiada satu pun kuasa yang mampu menghalangnya.'





P.s: when you cry alone helplessly, and you remember how your mom's voice sounds like, you will gain a 'magic' strength and you will stop crying. At least, it worked for me.

" kakak kan dah besar."

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laugh

"what happened to you?"

"life."

"what?

"life.life happened."



Kita ketawa. Kemudia menangis. Bila fikir balik sebab kita menangis, kita ketawa. Ketawa kat diri sendiri.ceh,pasal masalah dunia yang kecik pun nak menangis.



Oh, orang lain tak macam ni eh?


Aku je?


Baiklah.







P.s: nothing to look forward after the exam...but hey, life is more than that, remember??


Yeah right! -.-'

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bertenang

sumpah tak pernah rasa gelabah macam sekarang.

kena bertenang. fokus. exam. jangan gelabah. tarik nafas. masalah dunia ini boleh selesai kemudian.

fokus. ye fokus.









sesungguhnya perasaan untuk tidak menangis pada ketika ia sangat normal untuk menangis, sangat merimaskan.



tapi nabilah, jangan! tunggu dulu. exam dulu. tunggu. tarik nafas dan fokus.











ya Allah.

i've been eating...

Sumpah gua rindu nak makan makanan sebenar.

Ye makanan sebenar.

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lelah

Ke pantai

Atau

Ke hutan


lari.ye lari.




Ah.

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red

Life.

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osem.

last year, early October, i had this conversation with my other 2 friends in an Italian restaurant here.

"do you think we can live on space one day?"

"we have ISS what?"

"no, i mean something like a real country up there. you know, having families,facilities, a real community?well, just forget about it. i don't think we can. the living cost will be so high."

"hahaha. i don't know about the living cost, i'll concern more about the radiation."

"i don't know about living on space but i'm thinking something like transferring anything in computer to real world you know as easy as printing without using printer. you just tarik-tarik guna jari je dari laptop letak atas kertas and there goes your lecture notes on paper. tak payah nak bergaduh ngan printer pagi-pagi sebelum pergi kelas."

"wow.maybe in another 10 years.siapa tahu?"


and this morning i watched this video  and wow, we don't need to wait for another 10 years.

nowadays, most of people are manipulated by technology. but this guy....osem.

baiklah.

eh kat mana tadi? oh drug abuse.

encik abah and his poem

abah and his words. 

Harapan dan Deria Rasa Seorang Ibu Dalam Penantian

Dalam pasrah diri, menadah harap memohon pada Yang Satu

Seorang insan bernama ibu, menyerah kasih dalam tafakkur.

Semoga selamatlah ke alam maya, 

Biar tangisnya bergema ke seluruh alam,

Selamatlah ke alam fana ini,

Semoga yang bakal dilahirkan

seorang anak yang mulia hati

seorang anak berbudi tinggi

menjadi intan, permata, mutiara dan baiduri....

untuk diletakkan harapan, penyambung zuriat penerus warisan

Andai umur masih panjang, ingin dilihat anak berjuang,

Andai kedua bibirnya masih bisa bergerak, ingin diucap kata dan perangsang.

Andai airmatanya masih bisa mengalir, ingin dibasahi kedua pipinya dengan titisan gembira....airmata gembira seorang ibu tua.

and he got almost 2000 followers and i don't even know about it. 

"macam mana nak buat twitter?"


"what? noooo, u don't need that."


"but everyone is asking me about my twitter. i think i need it. so,how?"




-.-'

p.s: abah, sorry. copy sajak tanpa kebenaran.heh.

i guess it's time.

" daripada kau 'rosakkan' lagi banyak 'benda' baik kau buat benda baik."

"aku tak rosakkan apa-apa.kau tahu aku macam mana kan?"

"aku tahu.sebab aku kawan kau. tapi mata orang? telinga orang? mulut orang?otak orang?"

"kisah pulak aku.dan sejak bila kau kisah?"

"that's your problem. your i-don't-give-a -damn- problem.lepas tu kau makan hati sorang-sorang. fitnah kalau boleh elak kita elak weyh!"

sejak bila mulut manusia boleh tutup? sejak bila otak manusia boleh berhenti fikirkan hal orang lain? sejak bila?

sebagai manusia aku tak sempurna. pernah buat silap dan aku baiki kesilapan aku.

jadi, apa lagi manusia lain nak?

sebagai manusia, aku pun dah naik pening.

ah, persetankan semua tuh. aku ada masalah lagi besar sekarang.

ye.lagi besar. kopi 3 dalam 1 aku dah habis. dan aku malas nak keluar.macam mana nak burn the midnight oil ni? macam mana nak pass with flying colours? heh.

p.s: mimpi bersihkan si Coca dan Cola semalam.