The last hurdle

We learn our bum off in medical school to fight off death for other people but not even one lesson on how to go on living our own lives.

I'm in my medical rotation. I did tell you how much I love surgery but did i tell you how much I hate medicine??? Well, I hate it. I miss surgery. I miss being in OT. I miss being around the most cynical people in the hospital ( I mean, surgeons). You might find this gross, but I miss stoma ( google it if you dont know, you lazy bum), those gross looking scars and i miss puting my hands inside human body. Okay that sounds sooo wrong, I mean if the surgeons allow me to scrub in. Anyhow, I have finals in another 2 weeks. Please please please pray for me.  If you know me, I might already bothered you through text or phonecalls asking to pray for me.heh. 

P.s: I'm this close (i wish you can see my finger now) to have mental breakdown. T_T I hate you exam. I just wanna get over medical school!!!!!!! Doakan, pretty please.

i'll search the high and low for you...

Love me even when you hate me.

Happy 6 months of being my husband. Heh.

A jar of Nutella

I need to stop saying 'sorry' for everything.

I need to stop blaming myself for everything.

Oh come on, Nabilah Aisyah, you can't please everyone 

because you are not a jar of Nutella.

Baby

 "Smile, Rifqi, smile!

2014 was all about passing my 4th year exam and getting married.

2015 will be about getting a medical degree, become a safe  doctor  and...

becoming a mummy, Inshaallah.

Oh no, I'm not pregnant now. I mean not just yet. Doakan. hehe

p.s: Is it normal to say that I miss my own wedding? I miss wearing my wedding dress, I miss my pelamin and I miss my groom! 

a door

you are just a door to me that should be closed forever.

I'm a worried wife

And it was said: O earth, swallow down your water, and O cloud, clear away; and the water was made to abate and the affair was decided, and the ark rested on the Judi, and it was said: Away with the unjust people.

"Happy birthday, suami!"

"Thank you so much."

"This must be your most memorable birthday ever!"

"Yeah I got to celebrate with 300 other people and I'm practically staying in a mosque! What not to love.."

He sounds fine even though he is practically staying in a mosque with 300 other flood victims in Pahang. He asked me to stop worrying because everything is under controlled. He get to know different kinds of people from different background, he told me. Meanwhile, in Dublin, I cannot stop crying and freaking out in my room alone with freezing weather outside. I'm a very anxious person especially when it comes to safety of the people I love. I guess I'm becoming more like my mom (well, good luck to my kids). The day, he decided to go back to Kerteh ( oh please laaa to all oil and gas companies, can you please stop sending your engineers to the site until the flood subsides?) , I told him to stay in KL and wait until the flood subsides but he said, " You are just a worried wife. I'll be fine." I bet you are right,my dear husband! 

I'm more worried when my biggest nightmare came true. He is stranded in Jengka, Pahang now due to the massive flood. Guys out there, please listen to your wife. We, women have sixth sense! Put the joke aside, when you love someone so much, it hurts freaking much when you can't do anything to help them other than keep praying for their safety.  

Dear suami, like you said, 'ini mungkin kesusahan sebelum kemudahan. Allah wants me to be in His house. I get to pray jamaah and help people here. There must be a hikmah for all of this.' 

Happy Birthday, my wonderwall.

p.s : please include all the flood victims in your prayer. Pray for pantai timur. 

light writing 4 - of food hunting and sunset

I don't know about other people but when it comes to food I choose quality over quantity. I'm a type of person who prefer to cook my own food (I blame my mom and currently, my husband for making me become such a dapur type of person ), so if I want to eat outside I prefer to eat in nice restaurants that serve nice food. Most of the times, my choice of restaurants will be rejected by my friends because 'it's too classy' or 'it's too expensive'. So yeah, most of the time I'll end up eating home-cook nasi goreng kampung with cili potong at home. When a friend of mine who also goes for quality food rather than quantity ask me to go for food hunting in Dublin, I can't say no!  She made a last minute plan to come to Dublin instead of London just to eat!

Our first restaurant was Deep Restaurant in Howth. Howth is located around 20 minutes away from Dublin city itself by train. It is a actually a fishing and port village where you can eat selections of fresh seafood and go for a beautiful walk up to the top of the hill for a scenic panorama of beach and mountains.

Well, not the best seafood plater I have had but, not too bad. 

What is it about sunset that makes people feel so romantic and sometimes...melancholic?

He was like, "I just wanna chill here,man..."