Beautiful doom.

Everyday while waiting for the bus, I pray silently that I'll get a nice consultant or registrar to shadow during ward round or antenatal care clinic.  A nice doctor who actually teaches me. It is not that I want to be spoon-fed or anything  but at least answer me if I ask them questions. Hello, I'm a medical student here, can you at least introduce me to the patient when they walk into your clinic and not letting me feel awkward and krikk krikkk at one corner in your clinic? Too much to ask? As far as I can remember in my medical ethics lectures, it is the doctor's job to do that,anyway. 

Luckily these past few days I was with this one registrar who really 'pushed' me to a level which I don't even know I can actually do that. 4 hours with him in his antenatal care clinic and 1 hour ward round were my best 5 hours as a medical student so far. I'm not exaggerating.

"Hi, my name is F, and this is S a student doctor here. She is the one who will be answering all your questions today. If you have any questions, do ask her."

Patients did ask me a whole lot of questions. They asked from A to Z about their condition. I was sweating like tuuuttt and Dr.F was just standing in one corner as if he's the student doctor now not me. Sometimes, he gave me signals if my answer was wrong by giving his you-are-so-gonna-fail-you-osce face expression especially when it's related to management.

The last patient was the most difficult one. She was so anxious about her unplanned pregnancy. She asked me if she can choose to do c-section instead of spontaneous vaginal delivery. I was krikkk krikkk for a few minutes and looked at Dr.F for help. He looked at me while giving his you-answer-that-young-lady-or-you-die face. Damn. 

Anyway, thanks Dr.F. You made me think that I actually love medicine. 

Well, not to keep you boring with my obs and gynae story, here are some pictures from one of my favourite place to walk alone in Dublin. Temple Bar.

rasa nak beli semua benda kat kedai ni. 

Burger bakar versi Ireland.heh.

have a nice weekend.

Noob

There are two types of people when it comes to gadget. First, those people who are so annoyingly obsessed with their own gadgets and need to tell the world what their gadgets can do and how it freaking controls their lives. Second, those people who don't really care whatever gadgets that samseng and rambutan company are selling now. I definitely one of those people in the second group. I don't even know about ios 7 until I accidentally updated it during a ward round. I know some people are complaining it takes them up to 4 hours to update it. Well, it only took one ward round for me.heh.

Recently I just got a new gear from my med school and being me I'm always a noob when it comes to technology. For some reasons getting a new laptop for free is not as excited as getting a new pair of shoes. Bimbo! Heeeee.

"I heard you guys get a Macbook air this year?"

"Oh yeah."

"Is it lion?"

" haaa? No it's a laptop."

and the doctor just walked away. Noob. No, I mean I'm the noob here. I just knew how lion and macbook are actually related. Noob nabilah noob!!!

Anyway, I'm in my obs and gynae rotation which is painfully busy. It is the busiest rotation evahh! I have to be in hospital from 8 or sometimes 7 a.m until 5 or sometimes 7 p.m. During the labour week some of us might need to stay from 7p.m to 7 a.m even on saturday, mind you. ( so kids, think again if you want to be a doctor or not. Tak payah cakap la pasal interns. Lagi teruk) It always makes me wonder why does God create so many diseases to us, women? -.-' From the start of pregnancy we have hyperemesis, heartburn,fatigue or even depression. Towards the end we have pre-eclampsia, gestational diabetes, preterm premature rupture of membrane to name a few. During labour we have other complications. Not to mention post partum diseases especially post partum haemorrhage. Don't even start about gynaecological problems. 

Well, I think we, women are the strongest creatures that God ever created. We should take pride in that,right, women?

Have a good Sunday everyone.

Well this is how my weekend so far,

Because as a noob one laptop is not enough. -.-' 

And oh I miss Malaysia. 

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Some kind of bacteria or common flu virus are having a campfire party inside my lungs now. Heck, it has been two weeks now. I'm not sure if it is a real sickness or it is just an emotion-related sickness since I had this before just a week before going back to Dublin last year...and a year before that too.

Once, I decided not to be too transparent in term of my feelings in my blog, you know, write about my sadness and hormonal talking etc. Today, I can't help it. People keep giving me false hopes and bad news. I don't know what to expect. I don't want to give myself negative vibes but I can feel it's gonna be a hard year for me. If and only if people can be more responsible and considerate and stop giving false hope to me...I would be such a happy kid in Dublin. Oh well, 'if' is such a cruel word there is.


The only thing that can make me at lease stop adding wrinkles on my forehead is getting a Macbook Air from my med school. A new gear.  We are a bunch of spoiled medical students. Oh well...


Allah, permudahkanlah.

I miss you, girlfriends!

"and this is how we fix the window..."

"I told you, I don't like K-pop!"

Back to harsh, cold reality in 2 days.

Please Dublin treat me nicely.

4th year, bring it on!

I'm not like you but I can pretend.

No, I can't pretend. 

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